Missing you

Missing You 
Four years ago, you came into my life and at that moment, I never imagined that I would fall so hard for you.  We became very close and the more I got to know you, the more I wanted to be with you.  I never will forget the first date we had at O'Charley's and how we would sit there for hours, laughing, listening to each other telling stories about our lives.  

One of the thing I loved about you the most was that you always made me smile and without you ,I was different.  I never got a chance to tell you how much you meant to me.  You have changed me in so many ways.  You inspired me to do better as a man.  One of the thing I regret the most is that I let so much time pass by and I didn't try harder to spend time with you, because I thought I had all the time in the world and you were feeling better.  Our relationship wasn't perfect, and I sometime took it for granted.  Right now, I'm wishing that You are here right now, just so I can tell you what you meant to me over the years, and how much I loved your personality, your laugh and how you view life in a unique way.  I miss you my friend.  It's amazing how life became precious in a blink of an eye.  You may be gone from earth, but you never will be absent from my heart. It's not the same without you.  I miss our long conversations about life in general, you fussing at me about my facebook statuses and your laugh when I say stupid things.   I miss you NaTanya Dean.  Rest well, my friend.  I hope to see you one day.  

Jeremy

Definition of Love

It suddenly hit me, while I was driving home, that Not many people knows what Love is, and what it actually mean.  I've experienced love, in a good and bad ways.  When I'm in love with someone, and I find myself trying to explain this love I have for this person. All I can say is that it's hard to describe, but easy to feel. I'm not quite sure how to tell a person that I love them, without making them feeling uncomfortable.  From my experience, sometime it is not really necessary saying it, but I can't help but feel that there is something about the inability to say it at all.  Maybe it's because of the fear of loving someone, and not getting one in return. I don't know.  It can be quite scary.  

 What's interesting about Love is that it has a way of making you feel weak for a good reason.  But, at the same time it makes you strong.  IT can be quite confusing, and I think that's the best part about love:  You just love LOVE that person regardless of how they act.  It seems to me, based on my experience, that everyone wants a definition about love, and to be honest with you.... I don't have any definition.  Let me tell you something about love.   I've always thought that Love includes so many things that I don't even know where to begin.  Let's start with Trust.  Love is Trust.   you have to trust to love someone.  Ever heard of this saying, " Love is and will always be a leap of faith."  It is true!  Nothing is a sure thing in Love.  You just have to trust.   Love is Selfless. Love lets you love someone with immutable qualities- your kindness, your integrity, your character, and you just want them to continue to grow as a better person.  Love is Selfish.  It lets you love someone for your own sake. It allows you want that person to make you a better person, finding a way to change for the better.  I never could understand why  most people shy away from love. I can’t help but think that the more one stresses over ‘knowing’ what love is, the more likely they will be to let it slip by. There is no way to ‘know’ other than by the standards you, and you alone, create for yourself. 

Life is too short, so it's really important that we stop and tell that person that we truly love them.  It's worth the effort. 

 

God has my back

Lately all the troubles, the trials I've been going through

It's a battle I’m constantly fighting  and it gets rough at times

Lord knows I’m trying my best, yes he know I’m trying so hard

Many nights I find  myself on my knee
Saying a prayer with  tears flowing

Asking God to take away my fears

Asking God to wrap his arm around me

Asking God to protect me

Lately Family and Friends talking about me

It's a long journey I've been on

Lost  and gained new friends along the way

In the end, through all the struggles, I pray

God never said it would be easy for me

But God promised he would be there for me

Through the trials and tribulations

I know he has my back no matter what. 

Saying GoodByes

Looking back to the time we shared

And here I am wondering if it was all real to me

Looking back to that moment where I realized

What I felt for you was true

My heart was full of love for you

So in all, we tired,

But we've come to the end of the road

So,I'm saying GoodByes...

 

You gave me strength

You gave me courage

You gave me life

You gave me the wings I need to fly

You've found your happiness

So I'm saying Good byes...

 

All the lies you told

All the hurt you've caused

All the game you played

All the trust I had gone

So I'm saying Good byes..

 

I've tried and cried
And died inside by the rules i did abide
But without subtlety
Lies from those that despise
Brought forth my demise
Think not that i am broken
Butt rather the experience has made me wise

So I'm saying Good byes...

What is Christmas

My earliest memory of Christmas is me, at three or four, sleeping in my room on Christmas Eve. Just before I nodded off, my mother told me a Christmas story about Joseph, Mary and the birth of Christ.  I fell asleep in her arm and the next morning, I woke up and Santa Claus had brought me my first Nintendo system and the games that came with it. I was probably seven or eight at that time. I was so elated that I ran to my parent and gave them the biggest hugs anyone could ask for. If I asked you to stop reading for a minute and think about the best Christmas gift that you ever received, there is a good chance that you will think of something that made you happy and it doesn't have to be the expensive gifts. 


Looking back, I realized that the best thing about Christmas is that we have an opportunity to experience that special feeling, that feeling where we cherish the memories and feelings of Christmas with family and friends.  What defines Christmas is the kinder heart of people who are generous and more forgiving during this time of the year and it is a rare opportunity where everything get to be perfect for one day, because it is perfect time to remember our blessings. Christmas is bigger than anything, because we get to celebrate the birth of Christ.  The reason we have Christmas is to celebrate the birth of Christ. If we did not have Christ, we would not have, a forever life. Merry Christmas everyone and be blessed.  




Love,




Jeremy Tuck

Love Accessible and Familiar

Looking at you, I could dream about you for days.
I could kiss you a thousand times and still not be satisfied.
There's something about you, don't know where to begin,
All I know is that my love for you is endless, so tender, so hot and complete.
I swear with all my heart that I want you in my life.
I find myself loving you more and more with each day passing
And as tomorrow approaches, I know I will love you more than I did yesterday.
When reminded of what Love is, I see our love as all the things you are to me
You gave me hope, and show me many reasons why I love you more and more
So with this I ask you to accept my heart as your and let our heart join as one, let it beat together
Baby, I live for you, without you I"m nothing.
FOr the first time in long time, I have you to believe in me.
For the better, for the worse, you've seen me and still take as I am
I find myself giving thanks to God for you
I want you and always will and there is nothing that will ever change the way I feel about you

Fighting Words

Things aint right between you and me. 
Tired of all ofthe fightings
Tired of all the cryings late at night/
Telling me you wanna go 
But baby we got lot to lose


So right I choose
to get back right back 
to what matters
the heart of it is us
And I will stop fighting and crying if you agree
we can bring it back to you and me


So take my hand and let's ride out the storm together
Many reasons we have to keep fighting for us
We show love for each other
We give each other hope
we help each other to cope
From you, I learned to love
I live for you baby
And now I want to give
Can we make it right once and for all 


If you're afraid then tell me so I can make it better
Let's pray together you and I
Without God there is no us
Let the love of God bring us together
You're my world and nothing more