God has my back

Lately all the troubles, the trials I've been going through

It's a battle I’m constantly fighting  and it gets rough at times

Lord knows I’m trying my best, yes he know I’m trying so hard

Many nights I find  myself on my knee
Saying a prayer with  tears flowing

Asking God to take away my fears

Asking God to wrap his arm around me

Asking God to protect me

Lately Family and Friends talking about me

It's a long journey I've been on

Lost  and gained new friends along the way

In the end, through all the struggles, I pray

God never said it would be easy for me

But God promised he would be there for me

Through the trials and tribulations

I know he has my back no matter what. 

Saying GoodByes

Looking back to the time we shared

And here I am wondering if it was all real to me

Looking back to that moment where I realized

What I felt for you was true

My heart was full of love for you

So in all, we tired,

But we've come to the end of the road

So,I'm saying GoodByes...

 

You gave me strength

You gave me courage

You gave me life

You gave me the wings I need to fly

You've found your happiness

So I'm saying Good byes...

 

All the lies you told

All the hurt you've caused

All the game you played

All the trust I had gone

So I'm saying Good byes..

 

I've tried and cried
And died inside by the rules i did abide
But without subtlety
Lies from those that despise
Brought forth my demise
Think not that i am broken
Butt rather the experience has made me wise

So I'm saying Good byes...

What is Christmas

My earliest memory of Christmas is me, at three or four, sleeping in my room on Christmas Eve. Just before I nodded off, my mother told me a Christmas story about Joseph, Mary and the birth of Christ.  I fell asleep in her arm and the next morning, I woke up and Santa Claus had brought me my first Nintendo system and the games that came with it. I was probably seven or eight at that time. I was so elated that I ran to my parent and gave them the biggest hugs anyone could ask for. If I asked you to stop reading for a minute and think about the best Christmas gift that you ever received, there is a good chance that you will think of something that made you happy and it doesn't have to be the expensive gifts. 


Looking back, I realized that the best thing about Christmas is that we have an opportunity to experience that special feeling, that feeling where we cherish the memories and feelings of Christmas with family and friends.  What defines Christmas is the kinder heart of people who are generous and more forgiving during this time of the year and it is a rare opportunity where everything get to be perfect for one day, because it is perfect time to remember our blessings. Christmas is bigger than anything, because we get to celebrate the birth of Christ.  The reason we have Christmas is to celebrate the birth of Christ. If we did not have Christ, we would not have, a forever life. Merry Christmas everyone and be blessed.  




Love,




Jeremy Tuck

Love Accessible and Familiar

Looking at you, I could dream about you for days.
I could kiss you a thousand times and still not be satisfied.
There's something about you, don't know where to begin,
All I know is that my love for you is endless, so tender, so hot and complete.
I swear with all my heart that I want you in my life.
I find myself loving you more and more with each day passing
And as tomorrow approaches, I know I will love you more than I did yesterday.
When reminded of what Love is, I see our love as all the things you are to me
You gave me hope, and show me many reasons why I love you more and more
So with this I ask you to accept my heart as your and let our heart join as one, let it beat together
Baby, I live for you, without you I"m nothing.
FOr the first time in long time, I have you to believe in me.
For the better, for the worse, you've seen me and still take as I am
I find myself giving thanks to God for you
I want you and always will and there is nothing that will ever change the way I feel about you

Fighting Words

Things aint right between you and me. 
Tired of all ofthe fightings
Tired of all the cryings late at night/
Telling me you wanna go 
But baby we got lot to lose


So right I choose
to get back right back 
to what matters
the heart of it is us
And I will stop fighting and crying if you agree
we can bring it back to you and me


So take my hand and let's ride out the storm together
Many reasons we have to keep fighting for us
We show love for each other
We give each other hope
we help each other to cope
From you, I learned to love
I live for you baby
And now I want to give
Can we make it right once and for all 


If you're afraid then tell me so I can make it better
Let's pray together you and I
Without God there is no us
Let the love of God bring us together
You're my world and nothing more

Random Stuff

I wrote this in five minute.. on my cell phone.  Just being random...  Have a great evening!

Sitting here in the dark recounting all lies told to the fools like me; false promises, all that I have heard, all that I've seen. Just sitting here, counting all those time, you never were there for me, wastin' my time, spending my dime, not caring about me. Never bothered to ask how I feel, got me facing my fears alone its alright. Im used to deal with my pain alone, but know this im feeling like Cain in the bible and that aint good at all. Peace.

Confusion

Loud chatter echoes from the back of the room. My eyes dart to the notes on the board, and then I duck my head and scribble them down.  I raise my head again to listen to my co-worker talking, but it is nearly impossible to hear him with the noise behind me. My eyes flick to the coworker, next to me, but my co-worker is busy writing down notes and not paying attention to me. I'm sitting here missing key information, which I need to know.  Suddenly, I hear everyone start talking at the same time, and things become confusing and I struggle to sort the whole chaos going on.  Sadly, the scene I described was all too common at work for the past few years. The managers in the back row and all the chatting co-workers were difficult for me to keep up.  One thing that most people don't know about me is that I am profoundly deaf and I use a hearing aid to help me hear. The hearing aid doesn't allow me to hear as well as a person with normal hearing.

One of the disadvantages of being deaf with hearing aids is that it is very difficult to understand a person who mumbles badly or has a thick accent. I sometime struggle to understand people in crowds, noisy environments and It's not always easy to adjust to it.  It's not just work I have trouble dealing with, but it's with my friends as well. People often forget that I am hearing impaired, and they need to learn to take the time to make sure I understand what is going on. Many times, I've been left out of the conversation and it hurt my feelings.  I've struggled throughout my life trying to fit in this world called " hearing" It's a world where all people who has perfect hearing, perfect speech exists.   There is another world for deaf people, and it's called “Deaf" I don't fit in with both worlds. I'm a misfit.  I have no home.  I struggle to find respect in both worlds, and it's not always easy.   In the deaf world, I'm viewed as someone who is stuck-up, thinks he knows it all, just because I have a Master Degree and I don't draw disability checks like most deaf people does.  They expect me to struggle in this life with little or no money.  Now, the hearing world. I'm perceived as someone who is “special child" who just happened to get lucky with his college education and working at Lockheed Martin.  I struggle, I tell you. No matter how hard I work, NO matter how hard I try.. I'm always reminded that there is limit and I can't go over that, because of my disability.  I've always wondered if my ex-girlfriends left me because of my hearing loss and I don't care what anyone says, I do know that it does play a role in a relationship, and most people just can't handle that.  I've always wondered if that is the reason why I can't find a job.  I've always wondered I never get invited to hang with my friends, because of my hearing loss.  Believe it or not, No matter what people say, they always judge me because of what's in my ears, not what's in my heart. 

That is why; I can't afford to be like a normal person with hearing.  One thing I've learned when I was younger is that... no matter what I am good at, whether it is at sports, school, reading, I'm always going to work twice as hard just to be recognized for something I shouldn't have to work hard for.  That's the theme of my life.  That's what I deal with on daily basis.  I don't have time to sit back and enjoy life, because the minute I slip up, is when they find a way to get rid of me.  That's what happened to me at Lockheed.  Never again.   Things I've gone through, most of you haven't.  Things I've gone through, I've never told anyone about and yes it's that deep.  I made a promise to myself that next time; I have to work twice as hard to make sure I stay ahead of the game at all costs.  I can't afford to lose.  I'm a black male and I'm deaf.  It's already hard enough being a black man. Now, try being a deaf man as well.  Yeah.  It's harder than you think. Life isn't fair, but we make the most out of it.